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Love your imagined Pesanta illustration. Interesting, how this myth has a lot of nightmare-ish connotations, but for me, your illustration and the idea of Pesanta - brings instant comfort and feeling of home. The “Transformation” workshop, that you helped create, facilitated by Phuc Van Dang, was the first time I reflected on this as an adult: I am comforted by dark parts.

Looking closer to the origins of this part of my personality, I could hear my Mom’s voice, singing a bedtime lullaby, a Russian folk song: “Sleep, sleep, fall asleep, but do not lay too close to the edge; A grey wolf will come and take a bite of your sweet side”. And one of the first bed time stories every parent tells their child, where I come from, is a story of three pig brothers and their different houses and how the wolf came and destroyed them all. I always rooted for the wolf, because if you are silly enough to make your house out of hay - it’s your own fault. The Wolf became a sort of personal totem of mine, a spirit animal representing my Shadow.

This past summer, I had a conversation with my Dad and I asked him: “What was the scariest thing you ever encountered on one of your fishing trips, hiking through the woods and across rivers?” And he told me about an encounter with a grey wolf that he had. He was walking a forest path and suddenly felt at the back of his neck, somebody staring at him, as he turned around he was facing a big grey wolf, staring him down with effortless arrogance. My Dad stared back for a good while, full minutes passing by in slow motion, until the wolf deemed him a worthy presence, bowed in agreement and continued on his walk.

It is only terrifying if you don’t look directly at it {the wolf, the shadow}, but if you are up for meeting its gaze — it can be one of the best parts of your life.

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